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Monday, October 18, 2010
Strapped and Stressed
It seems as though this year is harder than the last. My grades are dropping. My social life is lacking. I am overwhelmed. I have to do this, do that and I am expected to do it all perfectly and by myself. I have never had a C in a class and right now I have TWO! I have no idea what is going on with me and my life this year but it is slowly slipping down a steep hill. Its not even that I have more to do this year per say but apparently I have less time. Why can't things just slow down so I can catch up?
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Letter 24
Dear Theatre,
Thats right my favorite memory is not from just one specific person but a specific area. Theatre has done so many things for me like helping me find my love for it and wanting to teach theatre for a job. I have spent most of my high school career lurking around the theatre learning things, acting, managing, and earning awards. Everything that happens in theatre stays in theatre :p
Thats right my favorite memory is not from just one specific person but a specific area. Theatre has done so many things for me like helping me find my love for it and wanting to teach theatre for a job. I have spent most of my high school career lurking around the theatre learning things, acting, managing, and earning awards. Everything that happens in theatre stays in theatre :p
Letter 23
Dear Last Kiss,
It was such a long time ago. Funny thing is we still have feelings for each other but have decided not to ever try again. I believe I will always have feelings for you. I hope the same comes from you. Right now we are best friends, your my bell buddy and don't ever change! :)
It was such a long time ago. Funny thing is we still have feelings for each other but have decided not to ever try again. I believe I will always have feelings for you. I hope the same comes from you. Right now we are best friends, your my bell buddy and don't ever change! :)
Letter 22
Dear Second Chance,
I have been thinking and in general I think that we can try to be friends again.... maybe. I have moved on, but have you? I am different than I was back then. Lets have another go round, see what happens.
I have been thinking and in general I think that we can try to be friends again.... maybe. I have moved on, but have you? I am different than I was back then. Lets have another go round, see what happens.
Letter 21
Dear Judged,
Even though I judged you by appearance and thought there was no way that we would ever become friends.... it happened. I am glad that I got past your appearance, though we are probably not the best of friends we are still friends. You are funny, cool and different... I like it :)
Even though I judged you by appearance and thought there was no way that we would ever become friends.... it happened. I am glad that I got past your appearance, though we are probably not the best of friends we are still friends. You are funny, cool and different... I like it :)
Letter 20
Broke my heart?! Yet again I don't know of anyone or anything that has done this... Sorry!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Letter 18
Dear Future Me,
I wish you to be more fit, strong, brave, crazy(in a good way), artistic, relaxed, organized, reliable, friendly, AWESOME!, intelligent, clean, loyal, reverable than you are now. I want you to be more you than you have ever been in your life. Don't let the little things stop you in your tracks. Work harder, faster, better, stronger then ever before. Don't stop doing what you love! Til I become you, Goodbye!
P.S. Til I need to be you as well!
I wish you to be more fit, strong, brave, crazy(in a good way), artistic, relaxed, organized, reliable, friendly, AWESOME!, intelligent, clean, loyal, reverable than you are now. I want you to be more you than you have ever been in your life. Don't let the little things stop you in your tracks. Work harder, faster, better, stronger then ever before. Don't stop doing what you love! Til I become you, Goodbye!
P.S. Til I need to be you as well!
Letter 17
PAIGE!!!!
We have known each other for way to long but that is why it is great :)
From not really talking to each back when we were kids to what we are today is an odd thing to think about. I can't believe how long it has been. Its a rollercoaster and I am glad that you have taken it with me. I don't have anything cool to say about like you did about me in your post but you know just as well as I do, I don't need to say anything you just understand :)
You're one of the people that let's me know that I'm blessed.
ILY in a non-relationship way Best friend :)
We have known each other for way to long but that is why it is great :)
From not really talking to each back when we were kids to what we are today is an odd thing to think about. I can't believe how long it has been. Its a rollercoaster and I am glad that you have taken it with me. I don't have anything cool to say about like you did about me in your post but you know just as well as I do, I don't need to say anything you just understand :)
You're one of the people that let's me know that I'm blessed.
ILY in a non-relationship way Best friend :)
Letter 16
Dear Most of my extended family,
We live in different states and I never see you. Though most of you are way older than me or way younger than me and I have no relatives I am close to near my age I want you guys to live closer to me. Almost all of my friends talk about their families because they live close to them. Even more of my friends have relatives that go to school with them, I don't have that luxory. So move to Kansas!
We live in different states and I never see you. Though most of you are way older than me or way younger than me and I have no relatives I am close to near my age I want you guys to live closer to me. Almost all of my friends talk about their families because they live close to them. Even more of my friends have relatives that go to school with them, I don't have that luxory. So move to Kansas!
Letter 14
Dear Same Unnamed from Letter 13,
We have drifted apart partly because of what I did and you moving away. Someday, maybe, we can get close again but for now I am happy talking occasionally like we do. Though I wish it was more often, I am just glad we are talking.
We have drifted apart partly because of what I did and you moving away. Someday, maybe, we can get close again but for now I am happy talking occasionally like we do. Though I wish it was more often, I am just glad we are talking.
Letter 13
Dear Unnamed,
I've said things to you that were very inappropriate and I wish I could take them all back for what I had with you before I said them. We had a wonderful friendship and I want it to be that way again. I am sorry, I hope you can forgive me.
I've said things to you that were very inappropriate and I wish I could take them all back for what I had with you before I said them. We had a wonderful friendship and I want it to be that way again. I am sorry, I hope you can forgive me.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Letter 11
Dear Alpha Irene Bayard,
Your the only dead person I seriously wish was alive today. You're my aunt but you're also more than that. We share birthdays, there is something about that bond that made us closer than most people realize. There is so much you have missed out on. Your grandkids growing up, my sister graduating, grandma dying, my soon to be senior year of high school. You died while I was in middle school. Most people don't realize why I acted the way I did back then, I was couping without you. When I go to Missouri to visit family, you aren't there anymore. It may have been a couple years since your death but I still am not the person I was before. I think I have finally became a different person, a better one. With your death I tried to keep you alive by picking up things you use to do. Things like your uncanny humor, cooking ability, and vivality. I have yet to pick up your sewing and ironing skills and I don't think I ever will, no offense lol. I hate how fast you died. It was so sudden and unexpected. I have reasons to hate cancer, I mean it was all over your body. Before you died you tried to tell you children where to find your will but they couldn't understand you because of that awful stroke you had. One day I heard that you were sick, the next you were in the hospital, the next in the nursing home, and the next you had your stroke, and finally you died. Too fast and I'll miss you always, I can't wait to see you again. Bye... :(
Your the only dead person I seriously wish was alive today. You're my aunt but you're also more than that. We share birthdays, there is something about that bond that made us closer than most people realize. There is so much you have missed out on. Your grandkids growing up, my sister graduating, grandma dying, my soon to be senior year of high school. You died while I was in middle school. Most people don't realize why I acted the way I did back then, I was couping without you. When I go to Missouri to visit family, you aren't there anymore. It may have been a couple years since your death but I still am not the person I was before. I think I have finally became a different person, a better one. With your death I tried to keep you alive by picking up things you use to do. Things like your uncanny humor, cooking ability, and vivality. I have yet to pick up your sewing and ironing skills and I don't think I ever will, no offense lol. I hate how fast you died. It was so sudden and unexpected. I have reasons to hate cancer, I mean it was all over your body. Before you died you tried to tell you children where to find your will but they couldn't understand you because of that awful stroke you had. One day I heard that you were sick, the next you were in the hospital, the next in the nursing home, and the next you had your stroke, and finally you died. Too fast and I'll miss you always, I can't wait to see you again. Bye... :(
Letter 10
I don't really know anyone who I need or want to talk to more... I feel that I talk to everyone I need to when I want to. I hope everyone else feels the same way. If they want me to talk more to them then they should just text me more lol. I'm sorry this wasn't a longer post but I guess I feel that I am needed where I am now and that if there are additions of people I need to talk to then so be it. That may have sounded wierd or an incomplete thought and that is because I can't exactly decide how to word it to make sense to everyone else... Oh well!
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Letter 9
Dear Grandpa,
I realized that though I would like to meet all the celebs I would rather meet you. Out of all the people, my mom still talks about you alot. She says how hard you worked, how she wishes you were alive, how she got your personality, how loving you were, how understanding you were. The list can go on but I'll stop there. You have met me when I was just a baby but I don't remember you. I wish I could of got to know you before God took you. I guess all I can do is wait. I hope to see you waiting for me there at the gates of heaven with grandma, the other grandpa, Irene, and all my other ancestors. Till then Grandpa I'll have to live with pictures and what mom tells me.....
I realized that though I would like to meet all the celebs I would rather meet you. Out of all the people, my mom still talks about you alot. She says how hard you worked, how she wishes you were alive, how she got your personality, how loving you were, how understanding you were. The list can go on but I'll stop there. You have met me when I was just a baby but I don't remember you. I wish I could of got to know you before God took you. I guess all I can do is wait. I hope to see you waiting for me there at the gates of heaven with grandma, the other grandpa, Irene, and all my other ancestors. Till then Grandpa I'll have to live with pictures and what mom tells me.....
Letter 8
Dear Rose,
I may have just met you but you are my favorite internet friend. Its awesome that you are an opera singer. I may not listen to opera but I understand how hard it is. Also you're quirky, instead of asking the normal Omegle questions you asked things like "Pirates or Ninjas?" and stuff to get to know me, I was surprised. I love that you are from the UK/London and it isn't because I love that area of the world.... I swear lol. You called my smile cheeky and then proceeded to explain that it is a British term that is good to be called. I also found out that my email is a British term for sweet because of you. I could easily say that I have crushed on you because I have and its because you are the British version of my American crush lol. I just hope we talk again soon.... :)
I may have just met you but you are my favorite internet friend. Its awesome that you are an opera singer. I may not listen to opera but I understand how hard it is. Also you're quirky, instead of asking the normal Omegle questions you asked things like "Pirates or Ninjas?" and stuff to get to know me, I was surprised. I love that you are from the UK/London and it isn't because I love that area of the world.... I swear lol. You called my smile cheeky and then proceeded to explain that it is a British term that is good to be called. I also found out that my email is a British term for sweet because of you. I could easily say that I have crushed on you because I have and its because you are the British version of my American crush lol. I just hope we talk again soon.... :)
Letter 7
Dear Ex,
We have known each other for a long time. We dated through out middle school and I don't regret a day of it. We may have never gotten far in our relationship, partly because of me and partly it was middle school, which is why it never lasted for us. We still have feelings for each other no one will ever understand. We will also probably never go out again which is fine with me. I just wanted to say thanks for giving me that chance over and over and over again. You have been my only super serious girlfriend and I will always see you as my first love. Thanks...
We have known each other for a long time. We dated through out middle school and I don't regret a day of it. We may have never gotten far in our relationship, partly because of me and partly it was middle school, which is why it never lasted for us. We still have feelings for each other no one will ever understand. We will also probably never go out again which is fine with me. I just wanted to say thanks for giving me that chance over and over and over again. You have been my only super serious girlfriend and I will always see you as my first love. Thanks...
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Letter 6
Hello Stranger,
I may not know you but you apparently know of me if you found this letter. I would like to congratulate you on being a creeper lol jk. Congratulations on finding me. Someday maybe we will actually know each other. I know I always need friends. Friends are the things that make you go places, try new things, and change you for the better.
I may not know you but you apparently know of me if you found this letter. I would like to congratulate you on being a creeper lol jk. Congratulations on finding me. Someday maybe we will actually know each other. I know I always need friends. Friends are the things that make you go places, try new things, and change you for the better.
Letter 5
Dear Dreams,
I have many dreams for my future. One is to be the next great thing to hit the movies. I understand that will probably never happen but if it does I have prepared myself to be a charitable person giving away my fortune and living in a modest house not a mansion. Of course this may sound cliche as alot of people say that is what they would do. I really mean it though. The other dream is a tad more reachable. I dream to be a successful, get this, theatre teacher. That is right, a theatre teacher. I want to stay in the fine arts as long as I live. Back in middle school if someone would of told me to be in theatre I would of been like aww heck no techno lol. Once I actually decided to try it out in high school I loved it and have been in almost every play since my sophomore year. If reality hits me in the face and says teaching is not for you, I will never get rid of theatre or art or band from my life. Whatever does happen to me in the future though, I hope its good.
As for dreams in the near future, I just want to be a kid growing up into the future me. Learning from the expected mistakes and the unexpected ones just being me.
I have many dreams for my future. One is to be the next great thing to hit the movies. I understand that will probably never happen but if it does I have prepared myself to be a charitable person giving away my fortune and living in a modest house not a mansion. Of course this may sound cliche as alot of people say that is what they would do. I really mean it though. The other dream is a tad more reachable. I dream to be a successful, get this, theatre teacher. That is right, a theatre teacher. I want to stay in the fine arts as long as I live. Back in middle school if someone would of told me to be in theatre I would of been like aww heck no techno lol. Once I actually decided to try it out in high school I loved it and have been in almost every play since my sophomore year. If reality hits me in the face and says teaching is not for you, I will never get rid of theatre or art or band from my life. Whatever does happen to me in the future though, I hope its good.
As for dreams in the near future, I just want to be a kid growing up into the future me. Learning from the expected mistakes and the unexpected ones just being me.
Letter 4
Dear Sister,
You are barely a year older than me, yet you treat me like I am 10 years younger than you. You say you are mature yet you rely on mom and dad to do everything for you. You tell me to grow up but you need to look at yourself first before you tell someone else to do what you need to do too. You are a tattle tale about everything. Yet you expect me to keep all of your dirty little secrets. You use to have the brightest red hair that everyone dreamt of having but you destroyed that by dying it over and over again. I will probably never see that wonderful red hair ever again. When we were kids you were the one who got everything you wanted. If I did it you got to do it too. If I wanted to hang out with my friends without you but we were doing something you wanted to do, you got to come and do it. You were a thorn in my side. Every time you wanted a friend to spend the night or spend the night at their house, you got it. Anytime we were fighting, I was the one who would get into trouble. It still ends up being that way today. It doesn't help that you are daddy's little girl. We call each other horrible names. I 'annoy' the crap out of you. You get so easily 'annoyed' sometimes I think it is just all a play you put on. But after all I have wrote bad about you, we have our good days. They may not last long but there are moments when I can look into your eyes and see a human. I would just like to remind you that I am there for you and all your problems. I've always been there. Hopefully some day you can have a good head on your shoulders. Til then, I love you Elizabeth and don't ever forget that.
You are barely a year older than me, yet you treat me like I am 10 years younger than you. You say you are mature yet you rely on mom and dad to do everything for you. You tell me to grow up but you need to look at yourself first before you tell someone else to do what you need to do too. You are a tattle tale about everything. Yet you expect me to keep all of your dirty little secrets. You use to have the brightest red hair that everyone dreamt of having but you destroyed that by dying it over and over again. I will probably never see that wonderful red hair ever again. When we were kids you were the one who got everything you wanted. If I did it you got to do it too. If I wanted to hang out with my friends without you but we were doing something you wanted to do, you got to come and do it. You were a thorn in my side. Every time you wanted a friend to spend the night or spend the night at their house, you got it. Anytime we were fighting, I was the one who would get into trouble. It still ends up being that way today. It doesn't help that you are daddy's little girl. We call each other horrible names. I 'annoy' the crap out of you. You get so easily 'annoyed' sometimes I think it is just all a play you put on. But after all I have wrote bad about you, we have our good days. They may not last long but there are moments when I can look into your eyes and see a human. I would just like to remind you that I am there for you and all your problems. I've always been there. Hopefully some day you can have a good head on your shoulders. Til then, I love you Elizabeth and don't ever forget that.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Letter 3
Dad: Lets start off with the worst. Your strict, unforgiving, stubborn, stupid, short-fused, controlling, and abusive. You won't let me have a life or stay out late and you control my time on the computer and when I leave for work. You never let me have friends over or even let me stay at friends houses. Even though you are all of those things, I still love you. You are my father. On your good days you have an undying sense of humor, wit and sarcasm. I've seen you have a heart. I've seen you on the verge of tears at funerals. I'm sure some of the rules and strictness will pay off later in life but right now, I just need my life. Relax dad, I am a responsible kid. There is no need to worry as much as you do.
Mom: You are my favorite parent. Granted I am a Momma's boy :). You have taught me patience, preservence, good will, to be charitable and lots of other things. You are one of the few people in this state that tries to recycle everything. Your peaceful, hard to anger and understanding. You have pushed me to do my best in everything I do. Along with that you have attended every single band concert, play, baseball game, and swimming lesson that I can remember. You have always been there for me. I want to be like you when I have kids. I hope I already resemble your wonderful demeanor. People say we look alike. I got your hair, eyes, and hopefully personality. I can't ever think of what life will be like without you. I told you before, I want to see you live to be 100. I love you Mom!
Mom: You are my favorite parent. Granted I am a Momma's boy :). You have taught me patience, preservence, good will, to be charitable and lots of other things. You are one of the few people in this state that tries to recycle everything. Your peaceful, hard to anger and understanding. You have pushed me to do my best in everything I do. Along with that you have attended every single band concert, play, baseball game, and swimming lesson that I can remember. You have always been there for me. I want to be like you when I have kids. I hope I already resemble your wonderful demeanor. People say we look alike. I got your hair, eyes, and hopefully personality. I can't ever think of what life will be like without you. I told you before, I want to see you live to be 100. I love you Mom!
Letter 2
Dear Crush,
I have crushed on you since middle school, I think. You have been in and out of my life since then. Some days you hate me, for no apparent reason, and others you can't get enough of me. We have nicknames for each other, that make us laugh. By the way I can't get enough of your giggle, the way you smile, your childish apparel and your love for movies. Though we are Co-Editors-In-Chief and having a relationship would complicate things. I want one and with you. I don't even know if you have the same feelings about me. Once you told me in eigth grade that you only date guys taller than you, well guess what I am now! Though I am too shy to ever say anything to you about my love for you I will always dream about what could be, you and me.
I have crushed on you since middle school, I think. You have been in and out of my life since then. Some days you hate me, for no apparent reason, and others you can't get enough of me. We have nicknames for each other, that make us laugh. By the way I can't get enough of your giggle, the way you smile, your childish apparel and your love for movies. Though we are Co-Editors-In-Chief and having a relationship would complicate things. I want one and with you. I don't even know if you have the same feelings about me. Once you told me in eigth grade that you only date guys taller than you, well guess what I am now! Though I am too shy to ever say anything to you about my love for you I will always dream about what could be, you and me.
Letter 1
To my best friends, I have many and I find it a crime to single out just one. I believe I can squeeze everything I need to say to all my friends into one post :)
1 We have spent alot of time together and I don't see us and our friendship going away anytime soon! :) BOMB!! Just wait til you guys read your birthday cards :)
2 You have called me a protege, amoung other names lol, and that if we hang out too much the world would explode because of the shear craziness. You have definately made a deep impact on my life and I hope to see you later in life
3 Miss Neighbor-From-A-Diagonal I have known you since basically birth and we have alot of great times and I can't wait to walk with you at graduation!
4 The one who moved but came back, sorta lol, You may go to a different school and I barely ever see you but when I do I know its a great day. Your just like Neighbor-From-A-Diagonal, nuts but that is what makes you 2 so amazing!
5The people of theatre at CHS and my APUSH class we have our rough patches but i love you guys because of all the things that have happened. We have helped each other and have a connection bonded by theatre and creepin on our APUSH teacher lol
Those are my besties and though most will never see this I am glad I wrote it :)
1 We have spent alot of time together and I don't see us and our friendship going away anytime soon! :) BOMB!! Just wait til you guys read your birthday cards :)
2 You have called me a protege, amoung other names lol, and that if we hang out too much the world would explode because of the shear craziness. You have definately made a deep impact on my life and I hope to see you later in life
3 Miss Neighbor-From-A-Diagonal I have known you since basically birth and we have alot of great times and I can't wait to walk with you at graduation!
4 The one who moved but came back, sorta lol, You may go to a different school and I barely ever see you but when I do I know its a great day. Your just like Neighbor-From-A-Diagonal, nuts but that is what makes you 2 so amazing!
5The people of theatre at CHS and my APUSH class we have our rough patches but i love you guys because of all the things that have happened. We have helped each other and have a connection bonded by theatre and creepin on our APUSH teacher lol
Those are my besties and though most will never see this I am glad I wrote it :)
Letters
So, I found this on my friend's blogger. I think I might do it.
One, to get back into writing here.
Two, because it may end up letting out feelings I don't even know I'm keeping in. The same as my friend has done, I feel I need to do this now.
letter 1 your best friend
letter 2 your crush
letter 3 your parents
letter 4 your sibling
letter 5 your dreams
letter 6 a stranger
letter 7 your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend
letter 8 your favorite internet friend
letter 9 someone you wish you could meet
letter 10 someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
letter 11 a deceased person you wish you could talk to
letter 12 the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
letter 13 someone you wish could forgive you
letter 14 someone you’ve drifted away from
letter 15 the person you miss the most
letter 16 someone that’s not in your state/country
letter 17 someone from your childhood
letter 18 the person that you wish you could be
letter 19 someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
letter 20 the one that broke your heart the hardest
letter 21 someone you judged by their first impression
letter 22 someone you want to give a second chance to
letter 23 the last person you kissed
letter 24 the person that gave you your favorite memory
letter 25 the person you know that is going through the worst of times
letter 26 the last person you made a pinky promise to
letter 27 the friendliest person you knew for only one day
letter 28 someone that changed your life
letter 29 the person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to
letter 30 your reflection in the mirror.
One, to get back into writing here.
Two, because it may end up letting out feelings I don't even know I'm keeping in. The same as my friend has done, I feel I need to do this now.
letter 1 your best friend
letter 2 your crush
letter 3 your parents
letter 4 your sibling
letter 5 your dreams
letter 6 a stranger
letter 7 your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend
letter 8 your favorite internet friend
letter 9 someone you wish you could meet
letter 10 someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
letter 11 a deceased person you wish you could talk to
letter 12 the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
letter 13 someone you wish could forgive you
letter 14 someone you’ve drifted away from
letter 15 the person you miss the most
letter 16 someone that’s not in your state/country
letter 17 someone from your childhood
letter 18 the person that you wish you could be
letter 19 someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
letter 20 the one that broke your heart the hardest
letter 21 someone you judged by their first impression
letter 22 someone you want to give a second chance to
letter 23 the last person you kissed
letter 24 the person that gave you your favorite memory
letter 25 the person you know that is going through the worst of times
letter 26 the last person you made a pinky promise to
letter 27 the friendliest person you knew for only one day
letter 28 someone that changed your life
letter 29 the person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to
letter 30 your reflection in the mirror.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
School Is Out For Summer!...... Almost
Stupid College class that bugs me with a final that is tomorrow but have no time to study for because of work! UGH!!! But in reverse I am glad I took that class. It is so fun all the time!
Been spending alot of time with Paige and Mercades (:P) Its been pretty awesome and I don't want this summer to end period.
Been spending alot of time with Paige and Mercades (:P) Its been pretty awesome and I don't want this summer to end period.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Playtime is Over!
Summer is here but there is nothing to do but work. My friends keep saying we need to hang out but it hasn't gone further than that. I WANT TO DO STUFF lol. I am, at this moment, burnt to a crisp. Thank God for sunburns :p
Next school year I am a senior.............. I want this but I don't want this lol. College will be great but I have so many friends that I don't want to leave and things I want to do before I go to college. Plus that means this summer I have to look for scholarships. Something that probably will be put off because of my laziness. Until next time.......
Next school year I am a senior.............. I want this but I don't want this lol. College will be great but I have so many friends that I don't want to leave and things I want to do before I go to college. Plus that means this summer I have to look for scholarships. Something that probably will be put off because of my laziness. Until next time.......
Monday, May 10, 2010
This Whirlwind We Call Life!
I have been so busy lately..... Too busy. Did some tests here, reviews there. School is almost freaking over! I can't believe it. I am hopefully getting a job, my sister is graduating in May (and leaving), and one of my old friends has moved back. I can also half heartedly say I can't wait til next year... I'll be a senior then but it also means that I have to get ready for change. Change I might not be ready for. Yet is change I am willing for. I need to get out of this house. My father is too constrictive. He is like a boa constrictor. lol He needs a chill pill and some heavy medication :)
Til next time........................ Auf Wiedersehen :D
Til next time........................ Auf Wiedersehen :D
Monday, May 3, 2010
It's Mhmm Mhmm Good!
School is finally slowing down and I love it! I have more time to do other things. Things I want to do can be done now for awhile that is. Finals will come and I will have absolutely no time then lol.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Get Ready 'Cuz Here I Come!
Its been too long since I have been on. This past week has gone by too fast and was super busy. By this time next week I will have taken my AP test and will be able to talk about it. This fact screams out END OF SCHOOL and I'm not sure if I want that to come. Usually over summer I do absolutely do nothing and gain more weight but during school I stay the same weight all year. I don't want to get fatter, no offense to all the fat people in the world. That and next school year will be my last in HS and I'm not ready for the real world to kick in yet. Its so scary and no one realizes this til they are in the situation. Not that parents haven't been through it but 1) Times have changed and 2) They have simply forgetton the rush of new feelings and anxiety that they had because it has been so very long since it has happened to them.
There is another part of me though that wants summer becuase I know then that I won't have to deal with teachers and their freaking homework assignments. I am mentally ripped in half. I need someone to sew my mind back together!!!
There is another part of me though that wants summer becuase I know then that I won't have to deal with teachers and their freaking homework assignments. I am mentally ripped in half. I need someone to sew my mind back together!!!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Lets Dance! Its the Night of Nights, To-night!
Tonight is Prom...... I cleaned my car for too long but it is clean now lol.
Today's Movies 
Friday, April 23, 2010
Ich Liebe Käse!!
That is right! It may sound absurd but I love my cheese lol.
Tomorrow is prom. I have never experienced such a hectic, frantic day of school in my life. Everyone was so giddy, if I may say, and annoying.Yes, annoying... Everyone was moving 10x the norm hoping that maybe school would get out quicker then. I don't know but it ticked me off. People shouldn't make such a big deal about it. Yet I also can't wait for tomorrow to come. It is going to be so fun.
Tomorrow is prom. I have never experienced such a hectic, frantic day of school in my life. Everyone was so giddy, if I may say, and annoying.Yes, annoying... Everyone was moving 10x the norm hoping that maybe school would get out quicker then. I don't know but it ticked me off. People shouldn't make such a big deal about it. Yet I also can't wait for tomorrow to come. It is going to be so fun.
Today's Movies
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Street Rat
I would just like to start off with.....LETS DO THE FORK IN THE GARBAGE DISPOSAL.....LETS DO THE FORK IN THE GARBAGE DISPOSAL.....ting-ting-ting ta-ting ting-ting ta-ting STOP I LOST MY CONTACT Found it..... :) That my friends is "The Yes Dance" a video off of YouTube. Check it out if you haven't seen it :)
Anyways school was just fine today. The one thing that ticked me off was that a freshman was walking by and said something to me like "Hey buddy whats going on?" Firstly, he made it sound like I was a five year old. Secondly, I didn't even know the stupid kid (I am choosing to keep the last statement about the kid to a very nice minimum).
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I Don't Wanna Miss A Single Thing You Do Tonight!
Since I didn't blog yesterday... This one will be longer. School was ehhhh, as usual. I voted for next years planner design.......
Isn't that freaking awesome?! It is design number 4. SO PICK IT! This is the one I want for my senior year at CHS. Also you get candy for voting, which to high schoolers is a BIG DEAL.
Ok so me actually talking in the extended length of the blog was kept to a minimum.....but oh well lol.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
To What Do I Owe The Pleasure, Mrs. Taylor?
Today has been fantastic! Church actually didn't annoy the living shit out of me. We are getting new Sunday School teachers for the first time in a very long time. GOOD-BYE SAM ADAMS!!!!! Thank God for Mr. Stranathan's son and his wife. Also Lynn preached today it was actually ok but the band sucked. That is only because Matt wasn't there to keep it up and running well. Good thing there is no school tomorrow or I would actually have to do something productive today lol.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
The Jungle
In the jungle... the mighty jungle.. the lion sleeps tonight
So tired but still awake
I'm pretty sure that this has been one of thee greatest weekends of my life :)
So tired but still awake
I'm pretty sure that this has been one of thee greatest weekends of my life :)
First going to Nathan's party was fantastic. I went to the drive-in for the first time and saw The Hot Tub Time Machine, Kick Ass and From Paris With Love. First one was ok, Second wasn't funny like I thought and Third was good but too tired to get into it lol.
Today was also a really fan-freakin-tastic day :)
I hung out with Paige, Mercedes and Brigham again. Watson Park is a wonderful place to hang out. Brigham's basement is better though. He has Ski-ball!!!! We found those dang fake mustaches but they are expensive as crap! While we were waiting on Brigham to get done paintballing, we went to Party City then the mall. Had some crab rangoons from Kwah Wan= Amazing :)
Friday, April 16, 2010
Shorts
Just a short blog today. Been busy, going places, doing things. Tonight= Party. Tomorrow= Hangin with Paige, Mercedes and Brigham. :) Oh and on there the religion thing PRAISE GOD!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Silence....Kills
Today was the Day of Silence at my school. It was so hard not talking all day. Of course there were moments where I broke and talked but not alot or long. The Day of Silence is basically a day to stand up for those who have been bullied. It was a fantastic day! I can't wait for this long weekend to start. I already heard Brigham ask Paige if we, well she, was coming over again. All I can say is TGITWE (Thank God Its The Week End). Nathan's par-tay is tomorrow! Going to the drive-in for that and gettin' some amazing Indian Tacos.
Now here is a wonderful ad from POM :)
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Revenge of the Nerd!
I realized today how much of a 'nerd' I am. We did whatever we wanted to do today in Wind Ensemble and what did I choose but that of Scrabble. I was told repeatedly 'NERD'. Like I give a crap that just means someday I will be the next Bill Gates and everyone who called me nerd will work under me. Not that I love being mean to those people but it makes me smile when I think about 'ruling' the world.
I have a feeling RotN 3 & 4 aren't as good a the 1st two RotN movies
Revenge of the Nerds 1,2, 3 & 4
I have a feeling RotN 3 & 4 aren't as good a the 1st two RotN movies
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phase...
I've had such a wonderful day. Except for the random people who flipped me off, but that is whatever. I can't describe how good I've felt lately, even though my grades are dropping. I am having a fun stress free attitude lately. I like how life is going lately. Even my sister watching stupid shows like Spongebob doesn't bug me. This can't last much longer, I tell myself, it can't be true. Yet for how ever long it lasts, I'll cherish it. This is a time of a life time. God said it is good and all shall be good.
Today's Movie
Monday, April 12, 2010
WOAH, SO MANY COLORS!!!
In the times of need, I am there. I always have been and always plan to be. If my friends need help or someone to listen to them, I am there. I mean not to say there are times when I am stretched and/or unresponsive lol. I love my friends, new or old, to death. I keep their secrets and help them work out their problems. Usually, I am one of the first to find out the deep stuff. I feel as though I am a mediator and such but I've never been told so. I love helping my friends and family.
...................Signs..................
Saturday, April 10, 2010
All By Myself....
There isn't really much to talk about on this fine Saturday. Well unless I talk about last night....:) I hung out with some of the best people in the world. And though it may come down to gas and I being home on time the times I hang out with my friends create memories that'll last a lifetime :). No, we didn't go to Disney World (but that would have been fan-freakin-tastic). But we did go to Walmart (this is gonna sound stupid but do you have any fake mustaches) and Family Dollar and Dollar Tree and Brigham's house! I still bet those mustachese are sitting in K-Mart waiting for Paige, Mercedes and I to find.
When we finally got to Brigham's house we had bought an airhorn and plastic forks. The forks aren't important I swear lol. While at Brigham's we got stared at by a cat(Briggy's cat to be exact), acted like we were older than we were(Cedes-21 Me-18 lol something we aren't), and tried keeping horny 10 year olds away... :) (Honey, I can't date you, I'm 21-Cedes) This kid was a hugger too, lol, at least he hugged Cedes alot while looking at her boob-age. Tanner, the 10 year old, finally left and we talked for awhile, blew the airhorn, and did horrible kart wheels. lol.
Today's Movie-------Sunshine Cleaning-------Watch IT!!
Friday, April 9, 2010
Hey Neighbor.....
"We don't want to make no trouble for nobody or fight no causes, and we will try to be good neighbors"----A Raisin in The Sun
I'm not the most conventional person. I know I can say I don't care what people say/think of me... but I do.... some. It may not seem like it cause I act out and break social norms daily but I do. Just cause I'm not 'normal' doesn't mean that I don't have feelings. Some things people say sink in after awhile. It turns from a simple statement after repition into a belief. If I act a certain way or do something a certain way makes me a certain thing in life. (This can apply for everyone.) I don't limit myself to normalcy. I try and stand out from the crowd which is why I get called some of the things I get called. I understand that but why is it so hard for me to shake those things off? I still haven't figured out why once I do, I swear it will be THE END of the world lol.
So there is this thing.... I don't know if you have heard of it.... it is a little thing called prom. You know a dance thing, that is just so important. The chick I am going with has turned into quite the stitch because of prom. She is causing me a great amount of stress, something not needed or wanted, for that matter. I found out that a lot of people agree with me...
Which brings me to my point I'm cornier than ethanol and cheesier than provolone.... I'M AWESOME just like Spose and I don't have plans on changing to appease the stitch or fit in with society as in the words of one of my friends I just want to be perfectly me!
I'm not the most conventional person. I know I can say I don't care what people say/think of me... but I do.... some. It may not seem like it cause I act out and break social norms daily but I do. Just cause I'm not 'normal' doesn't mean that I don't have feelings. Some things people say sink in after awhile. It turns from a simple statement after repition into a belief. If I act a certain way or do something a certain way makes me a certain thing in life. (This can apply for everyone.) I don't limit myself to normalcy. I try and stand out from the crowd which is why I get called some of the things I get called. I understand that but why is it so hard for me to shake those things off? I still haven't figured out why once I do, I swear it will be THE END of the world lol.
So there is this thing.... I don't know if you have heard of it.... it is a little thing called prom. You know a dance thing, that is just so important. The chick I am going with has turned into quite the stitch because of prom. She is causing me a great amount of stress, something not needed or wanted, for that matter. I found out that a lot of people agree with me...
Which brings me to my point I'm cornier than ethanol and cheesier than provolone.... I'M AWESOME just like Spose and I don't have plans on changing to appease the stitch or fit in with society as in the words of one of my friends I just want to be perfectly me!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
GI Bill is the cousin to GI Joe....
I've never really known how to express what I feel about things very well. Except through art, my forte. Yet I never seem to be actually happy til I am with art or friends who understand. The happy that everyone (in general) sees is a happiness that isn't fake but it isn't real either. I guess its just my personality. I am only truely happy in a few places and it seems like I find out some places aren't one as I once thought or they aren't a place to go to any more. So friends thank you for being my friends and all that jazz I love hanging out and talking with you guys....I guess I could say when I have no ''home'' you guys are my home :)
Anyways off of that :)
Today was a plesent day til I got home that is. My father is so impatient, demanding, and heartless. I'll leave it at that. (As a foreword, I will say stuff like this about my father often but I probably won't go into detail).
APUSH with Lolling is amazing PERIOD. That is where my title came from.... I said it but we were going over the 1950's-60's and the GI Bill came up that was the first thing I said in response, just to fill everyone in :)
In the words of Lizzy "Party at Lolling's House!!" and of Shane "Misssterrrr Rrrrreeegieerrrrrr!" I end this blog.....for today......bwuahahahaha
Anyways off of that :)
Today was a plesent day til I got home that is. My father is so impatient, demanding, and heartless. I'll leave it at that. (As a foreword, I will say stuff like this about my father often but I probably won't go into detail).
APUSH with Lolling is amazing PERIOD. That is where my title came from.... I said it but we were going over the 1950's-60's and the GI Bill came up that was the first thing I said in response, just to fill everyone in :)
In the words of Lizzy "Party at Lolling's House!!" and of Shane "Misssterrrr Rrrrreeegieerrrrrr!" I end this blog.....for today......bwuahahahaha
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
D-I-N-O-S-A-U-R
Kesha is crazy..... YOU are a dinosaur I say. By the way Paige and Mercedes made me make one.... :) don't know how often I will use it but all I can say is TRY
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