YouTube & Oppurtunity

YouTube has informed me that two of my videos are apparently not up for monetization because they are questionable if they are mine. I am not sure how I am suppose to support the fact that they are completely and 100% mine. They don't even contain anything remotely questionable. They came straight from the device I recorded them on to my computer. They contain nothing from a movie or television show. They contain no music (of any sort). They contain no graphics or pictures. They definitely don't contain anything about a video game or anything along those lines. It is just strange how they ever questioned them in the first place. Now, I am waiting on YouTube to see if they will change their minds about my channel's videos. If  you, the reader, would like to check these videos (The BWP - Campus High Thespian Edition & Kacie Being Creepy)  and tell me what you think or any of my other videos, here is my URL: http://www.youtube.com/user/codegreen04

On a completely different note, I was just called by my Sunday School teacher and I was asked to teach the class for when he will be gone (next Sunday). I am just so unsure about this offer. I have no confidence in my teaching ability or even my ability to lead a simple discussion. The reason he said that he called me was because he was looking for a reliable person who is on time and comes on a weekly basis. While I am all of those things, I still don't even have the book that we are discussing in class, Forgotten God by Francis Chan. I just don't know what to do.

Finally Done!

It may have taken close to a period of two years but I finally got all the letters done! Reading through some of the older ones I already see how much things have changed. I also feel like rewriting some of them but for now I will leave them alone. Maybe I will get around to doing them all over again haha (just not anytime soon).

Letter 30

Dear Reflection,




While your family is hectic and everything might seem like it is going against you, just remember that you have some awesome friends and God on your side. You are a bright, young man who is putting his life together. Things that people say are insignificant to the things that you can do in life so don't give up and just keep getting better. Life will work out all its kinks. Continue growing in your trust with God and don't give up the battle. Only three more years of college and into the real life you are thrown but don't be petrified I am sure that by the point that happens you will have figured out what the heck you will want to do with your college major..... Also, somewhere in the future can we work in a relationship and maybe a marriage with children. That would be nice, sometimes I am too lonely for my own good.

Letter 29

I don't have anyone that I am too afraid to tell everything to. If they are in my lives, I trust them with the knowledge of whatever comes my way. As soon as that trust is broken, they are gone.

Letter 28

Dear Life-Changer,





You may be from California while I am from Kansas. You may be several years older than me but you still talked to me. You may have graduated but you lived down the hall from me. You may be tall and I a lot shorter. Even with all those differences I have never met someone that has impacted my life more than you in such a short period. I felt like I could come to you about absolutely anything and it wouldn't be told to another human being. Then to find out that we are practically the same was even better for me. I found a role model. Everything you figured out about life, I wanted to know and you were always there when I had questions.




Thanks! I hope to continue knowing you all of my life!

Letter 27

Dear Man in the Managua/Houston Airport on the way back to the US,




The short conversation we had was pleasant and it was nice to find someone in an airport that I didn't know that still talked to me anyways. Everyone else had that look to them that if I talked to them that they would kill me. So thank you for being so kind. It really was a day brightener and it was a nice way to end my missions trip in Nicaragua.

Letter 26

Dear Pinky Promise,

It is actually surprising to me how recent it was that I made a pinky promise to someone. I thought it was just for little kids but you use them all the time. Well, I can tell you that I still have kept my promise. I mean it was to hang out so it was easy to keep. I am glad that we are friends and I hope in the future that it holds many more years of our friendship in it.

Letter 25

Dear ______,

The worst of times may be among you but they will always end. There is always that next step, that next turn, the light at the end of the tunnel. There will always be something good waiting for you. It may not happen right away. It may not even be some time soon or it may even seem like there is no possible way that there will ever be another good day but there is.

Don't let your mind settle into the slump of depression and deception. They are dangerous waters to wade into and very hard to get out of. God is there in times of good and of bad. If you need someone to lean on when you think no one else is there, God is great for that.

I know that it sounds absolutely impossible and that there is no way that it will ever end but remember that life is worth it. There are people out there that love you and there are reasons to live. Just keep reminding yourself that.

The Letter Challenge (Two Years In The Making)

These are the last six letters I have still yet to do from the 30 day challenge I started almost two years ago. I can't believe that I have had this blog for that long. I apologize to my non-existent readers for never finishing this.




letter 25 the person you know that is going through the worst of times
letter 26 the last person you made a pinky promise to
letter 27 the friendliest person you knew for only one day
letter 28 someone that changed your life
letter 29 the person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to
letter 30 your reflection in the mirror.

This Life Is Crazy.

It all started tonight around 8:30 p.m. that my great day all came crumbling down. I always knew that the smallest things can change a day completely but never did I think that the small things could come in a chain. My sister called me, she was frantic and after the day she has had no wonder. Her boyfriend was thinking about breaking up with her, so he was at his relative's house "thinking it over" on the very same day that she had a miscarriage and got yelled at all day by my father. So, she was in tears. She asked me to come home. Even though I was out with friends I felt it was necessary that I come home, only to find that I am not needed anymore. The boyfriend made his way back over to our house and they made up (for now). While I sat around  after coming home and having nothing to do, my mother tells me that my dad had a conniption fit tonight. He went around yelling, screaming, making threats, and slamming doors. My mother then also tells me that my father told her he has contemplated suicide. Never have I had a shock go through my body like that when I heard my mother say those words. I could not believe it and it was all about how much money he has been giving my sister. He feels like he is getting none of it. My mom then also discloses the fact that before my sister and I, he was going to attempt suicide because he was having a hard time finding work and such. So knowing that he has a previous history worries me even more. I told my sister when her and her boyfriend came upstairs to be extra thankful and careful. I then decided to write my father a letter about all the unsaid thanks and gratitude I have for him because now more than ever, he needs it. I closed in a verse from Joshua.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
- Joshua 1:9 (NIV)

He isn't a religious person (at least anymore) so it should be interesting how he takes it.

If there is anybody reading this and you are a follower of Jesus Christ, please pray for this family. We need it and it is all that I ask.