This life and there of.

Boy has the thought of college hit me like a brick. Its just a big bundle of emotions I can't handle right now. I got a message today on facebook from a guy I just added this day. He said that we are probably going to be roommates as he was informed by a guy who works in the student life center. I still have not come to terms fully that I will not be returning to Campus as a student. I still talk about the dang school like I have to worry about it and wonder what is gonna happen to everything there. I don't know if its a normal reaction for people to not want to move on in life but that is totally me right now. I am excited about college and getting away from home but Campus is where my life revolved for 4 years of my life. Everything I did was at that school or with people from that school. I know that the friends I leave behind there only matter if they keep in touch but I am worried that every single one of them will live on without me and be fine. I feel like shutting down and saying that I'm still in high school for the comfort but I know I have to move on. That is what life is about, moving on. I have to grow up. I have to go to college. I have to get past my fears. I have to.